Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Kem Kepimpinan Ikon Murid 2013

DAY 1
Reached the Pusat Kokurikulum by 10.30am,
Know my first new friend,Tricia from SMK Taman Connaught,
She's a pretty girl.
I'm the special without uniform and borang,Lol.

2.30pm
Arrived Bagan Lalang Resort which located at Sepang after 2 hours,
Get know to another new friend,Jer Fang from SMK Convert Sentul,
started the activities with the choosing of Penghulu and Penghuluwati,
Penghulu is Luqman from SMK Bangsar while Penghuluwati is Carol from SMK Taman Desa,
We're all from different school and even different zones in Wilayah Persekutuan,
Yoong said to me before this,
`You'll definitely miss them after the camp!`
Is this true?

After this we went to the dorm and settle down ourselves,
Girls and Guys are separated into 2 dorms,
The bed there are all double decker,
I slept at the upper side,beside me are Tricia and Jer Fang.

Went back to the hall to have our next activity,
Ice-breaking session.
We're ask to sit into groups according to our birthday month,
and we have to know each others in the group.

This camp is special,
Facilitators will not plan any programmes for us,
because we have to plan it by ourselves,including ice-breaking session,station games or majlis penutup.

Next on,we're divided into groups,
Group 4,POKOK *such cute group name,XD*
Group Leader : Liew (LikeABoss)
Members:Me,Tricia,Jason(SMK Maxwell),Fikry,Azlan,Muhammad(Silat Pro),Dini(Muhammad's lover),Teja,Carol(Penghuluwati)

Each group have to take charge of one programme,
My group have to in-charge of Majlis Penutup at the last day.

There are 6 meals during the camp each day,
Minum pagi,sarapan,Minum petang,Makan Petang,Makan malam and minum malam.
smart decision,don't each too much for each meal. hehe

Slept at 1.30am at night,
Gotta wake up at 4.30am to wake up the muslims' students for solat session,
and then sleep back until 6am,
Unfortunately I wasn't a sweet sleep and it cause me to be super duper sleepy next day.

p/s: Big appreciation goes to the guys,They helped us to refill the water with piles,
Because our female washrooms pipes are spoilt,
And they helped us to fix the pipes until midnight. *Touch*

DAY 2
The games are great,
Personally likes the Explorace,
It's something alike with station games,5 stations in total.

Sidang Pleno also a good session with all these sporting campers,
Although I was quite sleepy during this session since it's the first session in the day,
Early in the morning. ><

I was totally awake when they start the arguments,
Group 1 (penghulu and Jer Fang's group) are having presentation about,
Perayaan pelbagai kaum dalam Malaysia.

And then my group leader,Liew states that their information for
Moon cake festival ain't correct,
In my opinion,his tone of speaking is really not that great,
So Luqman stood up to defence his group saying that they're trying their best to understand,
then Liew questioned them about the purpose of Chinese New Year,
Luqman answered he doesn't know about this,
Liew explained CNY is to celebrate the new year which is in the Chinese calendar,
Teddy(non-muslim's but from a unique race) stood up to ask Liew correct his tone of speaking.

And then the one who presented this topic(A malay girl,can't remember her name),
Cried after this. *Sad case*
Leon Phang(If I'm not mistaken) carried on the presentation,
meanwhile Alam(Ketua kumpulan for another group) requested everyone to be calm and rational,
Since their group are taking charge of this session,
I personally thinks that we should respect them.

After this,we went to our first meal of the day,
Damn hungry XP

Loads of activities were going on for the whole day,
It's the last night of the camp,
and we're having Malam Gala!

Before this the muslims students went to solat and we have our moral lesson in the hall,
Shared so much about our experience for being a leader,
The form 3's here are so mature,
I beg most of them will become the head prefect or some important person in their school next year,
They're really great!
p/s: Feel so young joining them! XD

Having some new games which I don't experienced it during the past camps I've been through,
such as Mundur Maju,Freezing.
Another game (I forgotten the name of the game),
Every group with 2 people will be given an item,
Use your imagination to imagine what stuff can the item transform to and ACT IT,
The audience must be able to understand what are stuff are you trying to act,
you're given 2 minutes to act it group by group,
The group with the most creativity won the game.

The Last night in the camp,
My group went back to our dorm at 2am due to the preparation of the Closing ceremony tomorrow,
Have girls' talk with the room mates,
The malay girls actually are having pretty hairs,
Just that they are not allowed to show it to the others.
*Feeling Lucky!*

Muhammad(one of my group members) keep standing at the T-junction between the dorms,
We peeps outside and laughing like mad,
According to the rumours,
he seems like fall in love to Dini(also my group members),
Can you feel the love in the air?

DAY 3
Last morning at the campsite,
Have our Pendokumentasian explaination session.

After this will be the Closing ceremony,
My group(Group 2 POKOK) got the Best Group!
Wohoo!!

Every group got presents too,
It's a folder and a stationary set :)

Warm-hearted closing ceremony,
We started our journey here with words,
and we ended our journey here with songs.

Photoboom at the campsite and on the bus,
Secretly planned to let Tricia and Teddy sit together on the bus,
hahahahahahahahhhha!

Learnt so much here,
May this be one of my memories in life ❤

 The last photo (Back roll From left):Me,Jer Fang,Tricia,Teddy
(Front roll From left):Alam,Liew,Vimal
Family photo : (Back roll From left) Tricia & Me Daughter,Teddy Daddy
(Front roll From left) Jason Mummy,Jer Fang Daughter

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Yamcha session 051013

Day before the camp,
Went to SiewKee Dimsum which located at PJ to have breakfast with auntie,mummy and sister.

The part-time waitress there was funny,
Anyway,she's responsible!
She went to our table to record the receipt,
And auntie told her,
`我们的桌子没有人敢收钱的,哈哈哈哈!`

No deny,she was shocked that time,
After that one of the waiter came and told her that my auntie is the boss's mum,
So called TauKe Sou,
that's why no one will ask for payment from us. XD
*Sounds like bullying her*

The DimSum there are seriously delicious and creative,
there're something called 面线糕,竹碳虾饺 and 菠菜饺.
It's so new to me!
*Yum,yum!*

Enjoy my last breakfast before camp.

Photoboom!
The place there is nice :) It's moving to Manjalara soon!

 Self-shot when I was boring while auntie and mummy are chit-chatting! :P

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Graduation Day

Attended the first ever Graduation Day officially in KB,
I was there when last year's Graduation Day,
but I did not stepped into the hall and foyer,
so didn't have much feelings about that last year.

But this year,
I feel the love in the air,
I feel the bonds in the atmosphere.

31.10.2013
A day to be remembered,
Unforgettable day especially to the 94's and 96's,
and TO ME.

Was having my duties whole day long with WenLin,LiHui,ChyeMin,ShueLee and MeiYee,
Credits to them who works so hard together with me,
Thanks a lot,
I missed the farewell song part *Sigh*
Was meeting with the 99's in BP that time.

After that,
first scene into my sight was WenLin crying and said 'Senior Edwin 弄我哭的!'
Photobom with them after the event ends,
We took photos everywhere,every corners in the school,
BP,Corridor,Canteen,Tapak,Foyer,Pondok and etc.

I even took some photos with students that I don't know their name exactly,
Nevermind,it's memories though.
I thought senior Edwin went back home earlier,
Surprisingly,He suddenly appeared in front of the BP while I was sitting on the pentas with Yoong,
He took photo with BP and said '帮我拍一下照,7年料哦.'
And so I grabbed an opportunity to take photo with him,
At first he act cool as usual,
then Yoong said '你不会笑的阿?'
Then took another shot and HE SMILED BRIGHTLY.
SUNSHINE SMILE. *omg*
Before he leave,He said '明年加油,Take care.' to me,
I promised I'll do my very best to protect LP and everyone, I won't disappointed you. -♥-

I took photos with senior RonKit and senior ZhanFeng too,
Never missed any opportunity to hug them,HAHAAH,
I remembered that I hugged senior ZhanFeng super tight,
And I hugged his for twice.
Senior RonKit almost make me cry when he said '明年我们就真的不在料eh.',
Then I immediately asked him don't speak and hugged him tightly,
I knew I'll shed tears if he continue to say so.
Senior ZhanFeng said '明年拿STPM成绩的时候会来看你们的.'  -♥-
Promised yea,Don't forget.
I told them SARANGHAEYO before they leave.hehe

Then I took photos with the blue seniors,juniors and the 96's students too.

Never regret to meet all of you,I'll remember you guys in my heart until the day I'm buried.
I appreciate your appearance in my life,
never experted I'll met such wonderful seniors in my life,
To the 94's and 96's,
Thanks and sorry for everything,
I'll miss all of you FOREVER. 我爱你们,  -♥-

那三个Form6 seniors,
或许你们不懂其实你们真的对我很重要,很重要,
我从来没有想过在我的Form4生涯中会和你们有任何交集,
感谢你们从来没有嫌弃我们这些常常麻烦你们的Juniors,
感恩你们从来没有拒绝过和我们拍照及拥抱,
或许以后没有机会见面了,
但是我希望你们会记得我,因为我承诺我一定一定不会忘记你们的,
我爱你们,很爱很爱. -♥-
There wouldn't be a ME,without any of YOU.

其他的人,
我也不会忘记你们,
这5年内,你们为学校,为我们付出的,
我一定会永远记在心里,
因为如果没有你们,我就不可能体会到中学那么多新鲜的事物,
感恩.

如果有一天在街上,在任何地方你们遇见我,
请记得和我打招呼,
我一定会回应你们的,
因为你们会一直一直在我的心中,成为挥洒不去的回忆.

Regrets :
> Didn't hug with senior Edwin.
> Didn't take photo with senior KarHuey,senior Jaclyn,TeaySiewLinh,Edison,HanWern,Chelsea and ChunHan.
> Didn't hug with ChunHan.
> Was not there when the farewell song.

p/s: I didn't cry at school,But I cry like mad at home for hours.
I really really miss you all,
I LOVE YOU. -♥-

如果生命可以重来,我不会后悔认识过你们,
但是现在我希望生命可以重来一次,让我再一次和你们一起.  -♥-

Sunday, October 27, 2013

This Week

22nd of October,Tuesday
Went to 自在食 which located at Manjalara for dinner with relatives,
The dinner is great and I love the soup so much! :)
Mini family gathering.


#ootd #BlackAndWhite #Simple
23rd of October,Wednesday
ChyeMin's Birthday,
Bought some presents,a double chocolate cake and made a birthday card for her,
Purposely gave her the card during Dr Fong's tuition,
to give her a suprise
She was shocked because she never thought I did a card for her too.
Have a look on it,
I purposely collect lots of wishes from others as a memories to her. :)


26th of October,Saturday
Got a heart-to-heart chat with ChoiMan through skype at night,
We skype for 3 hours,
Until 1AM,
*Sigh*
I never experted I'll cry when I talked about juniors,about myself,
Maybe I really keep too much things inside my heart.

从什么时候开始,我把自己搞得怎么地廉价了,
没有了自己,就剩下为别人而活的我,
我一直以为别人快乐,我也会快乐,
但是原来有时候我也会自私地希望别人也记得我并不快乐,
我其实是一个多愁善感的人,
我甚至于对生活的事物很敏感,
但是我很喜欢笑,
我并不喜欢伪装自己,
但我总觉得我对于很多人而言并没有特别的价值,
所以久而久之我习惯了隐藏自己,
我以为我自己并不介意有些人只会在需要我帮忙的时候来找我,
我以为我真的不会.
我从来就不是大家眼中的伟人,
我自私,容易哭,容易笑,一点都不斯文,有一股坏脾气,更讨厌和老师打交道.

呵,不过现在不会了,
今年我牺牲很多我想要的只因为LP,
承诺自己,从现在开始,要好好地为自己而活,
也同时承诺自己,自己不是什么好人,从来都不是,
所以没有必要伪装自己,
明年学校的events,参与的并不是KP,而是Pei Kay.
我喜欢艺术,喜欢创作,喜欢逛街,喜欢吃吃喝喝,
只要有机会,
我会尝试任何我想尝试的事物,
嗯,我想这才是我想要的快乐,
那么的简单,只要做回自己就好.

我想找回2年前的自己,
还来得及吧?

27th of October,Sunday
Had a great chat with Sherry through Facebook during afternoon,
She inspired me a lot,
actually deep in her heart,
she ain't that strong,
But I really praised her of her passion towards future,
I'm kind of person who hesitate a lot about my decision,
But with her,I dare to dream.

我们都是同一类人,
想要别人关心但是却永远担心自己太过分,
我们承诺对方明年陪伴对方勇敢地做自己,
不要后悔,
往后的路有彼此的陪伴,我想我们都会更勇敢的.

Discussed a lot about next year's plan with her today,
Blood donation,
Sports' Day,
Charity Night,
Novel Competition,
Societies,
Rumah Sukan
承诺自己,要用自己双眼把我爱的一切记下来. -♥-

Task of the day : Memory Book for ChyeMin ^^
Quote of the day : It's either NOW or NEVER.

C:

Sunday, October 20, 2013

BearBear

Went to Addmaths tuition as usual,
Doing ChyeMin's Birthday card while waiting for class.

In all a sudden,
I hate my personalities which make me proud of it all the time,
I hate myself from hesitating,
I hate myself from not being brave,
I hate myself from not responsible.

Don't ask me why,
because I couldn't provide an accurate answer though.

I have no choice now,
but I have to mask myself to entertain everyone,
Isn't my job to entertain you guys?
Who cares either.

Back to the topic,
Went to class,Life as usual,
but today comes a super duper adorable character,
He is,
BearBear!!

Everyone smiles a lot and even scream when they saw it,
Same to me,
it's like we're back to our sweet childhood time,
Cuteness Overload BearBear.

Hopefully the next time I see it,
It's still in good condition,
Mr SaiMun,please kindly protect it from being bullied by other suizai(s).
Hehehehee!

#potd #BearBear #Love #GoogleSunglasses #ThanksSis #UVProtection #OceanBlue #Camwhore

Quote of the day : Prepared to be wrong,before you're right.

C:

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Saturday

I spent my Saturday at home.
Doing the Birthday card for ChyeMin as her Birthday is on next Wednesday,
It's her last Birthday in Malaysia with her,
I wish we could give her a memorable celebration.

Time flies,
It's been almost 3 months after perlantikan,
and seniors are having their SPM examination in 2 weeks time.

Luckily it's weekend now,
At least I have some time to make up my mind,
Telling myself that,Never forget who you are.
I almost forget about that for the past 2 weeks,
And now I have to remind myself of,
Who am I.

There're certain stuff that no one can help you,
Only you're the one who can do that,
No choice,no selections,
You have to,and you must achieve it.

Isn't life is like that?

The only constant in the world is to CHANGE,
the world won't change because of you,
Only you can change your sight to the world.

#POTD #KeepCalm #LoveArt #Weekend #Me #Colours

我向往简单,平凡. 
仅此而已,
可是为什么现在这个垂手可得的愿望,
竟变成了遥不可及的奢求呢?

C:

Friday, October 18, 2013

He

The forever strong man,
The super idol in all Kbians' heart,
The Chok King among us,
The legend on KB.

Please stay strong,
I know you can,
Pray hard for you,
but remember there might be one day you collapse,
Then just cry,just shout,
You have to stay strong but not acting strong.

We're here for you,
everything will be alright.

C:

Monday, October 14, 2013

111013 ♥ D' Fortune

Yesterday was WenShen's B'day,
and he jio us to D' Fortune for birthday celebration on Friday right after our Chemistry tuition.

Actually I does not planning to attend,
But Yuetqi them asked me to,
So I just attend since it's a birthday celebration,Right?

Doesn't regret to attend,
Memorable night with all the loves one. :3

At first I was planning to ask ChoiMan to fetch me,
Who knows...
给她仙家了. lol.
Until the last minute I only know,
She also tumpang people's car,
幸好她还有一丁点的良心,
I think she told the one who fetch her to fetch me.

I don't know he's going to fetch me,okay?
So I just chit-chat with Mr SaiMun after tuition class for few minutes,
I guarantee it's JUST FEW MINUTES,alright?
The moment I turned back,
he looked at me and said,快点啦,还要我等你.
Then I was like,Huh?! What the hell is happening?
So after that he told me that ChoiMan also sitting his car.
Sorry lorh,I don't know you were waiting for me ...
You just stand there like a statue and keep silence,who knows you're waiting for me ... :O

衰仔,
The moment I saw ChoiMan laughing like mad at downstairs,
I feel like I want to poke her. lol .
At last,Me,Justin and Mummy sat his car.
He was nagging *Not really nagging,just joking* by his mum on board,HAHAHAHAA!
His mum was funny.

Reached D' Fortune,
Order,order,order,
Me and ChyeMin shared Sausage roll and Lamb Chop.
YumYumYum,
Met some F3's there. *Shocked*
WenYing,Evelyn,SiChyi and XiaoTong have their late dinner there too.

With some unknown reasons,
He belanja us Banana Split yo,
Everyone shared their food with each others,
Spaghetti,Cheesy Chicken Chop,Tiger Prawn,French Fries and X-tra Large Hotdog.

这个画面真温馨,
我喜欢这样的生活,
简单,快乐,温暖,
今夜,我看见我向往的友谊.

Photobom time :)

Took group photo and took photo with YikHan,Yuetqi,ChoiMan,WenSheng,YuenYing and etc...
After this was about 9pm,
The night is still young,
We have our secret night talk here.

Me,Jeremy,Yuetqi,YikHan,YuenYing and ChyeMin have our secret talk while,
Justin,WenShen,YiChen and some guys playing their FIFA 14,
Mummy and ChoiMan having a talk too.
Undoubtedly,my gang was the one who laughed the loudest one,lol!
Saying about secrets,definitely is about love and rumours Tee-Hee

Shhhcret ^^

They knew mine too,
About the confession from a black,dahell,
Not more than that,hehe.

It's the first time I paid a visit to D' Fortune,
Nice place with nice foods and nice memories,
First time being so close with YuenYing,
First time sharing food with everyone *EVERYONE*
First time talking secret in such crowded,
First time being so cruel with Jeremy,
First time I laughed until my face turn red,
First time slapped people in a restaurant.

I don't want to slap you,okay?
Just that you said something horny,
宁得罪老虎,莫得罪女人,知道吗?
*LALALALALALALAA*

After this,I followed ChoiMan to go back home,
Unfortunately,her mum went to the wrong place,
She thought we were at D' Pastry,
Me and ChoiMan had a heart-to-heart talk while waiting for her mum,
She told me something about her love story,
Haih,I know she must be suffering a lot from that,
Nevermind,dear,Time can erase your sadness and brings you joy.

We went to home and started our Killer and Skyping night! HAHAHAAA!

She changed a lot this year,
Being more considerate and much more happier,
She is that kind of girl who don't really care about the comments from the people around,
She is full of courage.No denies.

I love this night,
Full of love and with the loves one 

#Min #WenShen #Eisei #Tsen #Yuetqi #Jeremy #Chen #Justin #YuenYing #YikHan #GarJun #JingYee 

有多久我们一班朋友不曾这样像聚在一块儿了,
呵,感触哇!

Photo Credits to WenShen,The B'day Boy,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 

C:

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Key

I knew this will happen,
But I never experted it becomes so serious now.

I keep asking myself,
"What is so big with the key?"
Maybe I should let him continue holding it?
Maybe there wouldn't be anything happen in BP?
Maybe this can avoid all the arguments today?

Mr Eric and Pn Mohana came to me after school,
Luckily Hazirah and LiHui were with me,
I knew they got some informations already,
He went to them to resign.

I saw his status,
Thanks Ivan,you're a great man!
Don't ever involved juniors into our issue,
Never ever.

Don't ever take juniors as one of your weapons,
They aren't,
They have their bright future in LP,
They have their unique thinking,
They have their own generation,
Don't interfere them. Never.

I won't allow the case happen once more,
I suffered from it before,it's enough,
I don't want my juniors suffer like me,
They deserve better future.

我很害怕,
我怕这些事情会再发生.
没有多少个人可以从这些事情的阴影走过来的.
为了Juniors,
我愿意牺牲一切,
就算要我走来避免这一切的发生,
我也愿意,我也心甘情愿,
只要不能毁掉Juniors的前途.


Monday, October 7, 2013

Day 2 without WenLin

So-called a peaceful day,
Went back class 5 minutes earlier because I'm having my Biology Paper 2 at 10.45am.

ShueLee came back to school to help out,
Kind ^^

ShengWei was a bit hot temper today during recess,
Because he's the only one who take care about the blocks.
While me and KarMan were taking charge of canteen.

Basically today's duties are worst,
Morning DS,
I wonder why can they stand there but not going to release the class line?
Haih.

Thought of many things when I done my Biology Paper 2,
p/s:I was day-dreaming during the halfway of the paper. LAWL.
Thought of Camp next year,
Thought of year end Gathering,
Thought of the Outings with the F3's,
Thought of afternoon session's Retirement,
Thought of Form 3's new prefects' recruitment,
Thought of the First Phrase of mentor-menti.
Everything just eventually came into my mind when the paper was still going on.

I have my Camp AJK list in my heart already,
But I'll still discuss with everyone first.

有些时候,
大家只不过是不愿意承认自己的错误,
而很坦白地说,
我没有足够的勇气去纠正你的错,
但是我也没有办法任由你这样下去.

I have my way,
but don't force me to do that,
I'm sure that you won't like that.
But I'm sure that I don't like your attitude too.

C:

#POTD #ME #SchoolLook #BackToHome #Exam #Hwating 

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Exam Season

Too many negative thoughts in the surroundings recently.
I admitted that I was really down before this,
Or should I say,
I'm still quite moody until now.

But it's alright for me,
Just keep myself busy and don't ever look back.

Looking back is killing,
It makes me keep thinking about those touching memories,
Looking forward is much more better,Right?
Hopefully it's true though.

So it's almost 2 weeks gone for my finals,
9 subjects were down!
Yeappy!!
Biology paper tomorrow,
It's killing,I'm so dead now. Haih.

Addmaths paper on Tuesday,
It's even worse. Argh!

After Tuesday,
I swear that I'll sleep and have fun like there's no tomorrow,
And throw my brain away,
Most importantly,
To enjoy my early Year-end holidays!! *That's a great news*

Promise myself that,
Must hangout with WenLin and LiHui,
Must hangout with the awesome F3's as I promised,
Must hangout with my old tuition friends from Raja Abdullah and St Mary,
Must hangout with classmates 4K and 4M too.
Must hangout with all my besties!

So many stuffs to accomplish after this,
F3's New prefects' recruitment is coming in 1 week time,
Afternoon session juniors' P&P is coming in 2 weeks time,
Meeting is coming in 5 days time,
Debate homework must be done in 1 week time,
etc etc etc...

But now,
10.31PM,
I should do my last revision for Biology!
Way to go,guys!
See you next time!

思念是催泪的,
或许有一天当我一个人的时候,
我会默默地落泪.
或许吧.

C:

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Day 1 without WenLin

Day 1 without WenLin,
I feel lonely,
I still smile,still duty,still laugh,still sitting for exams,still live as usual,
But just for awhile I feel lonely when I sit in BP.

我忘了到底我现在的生活期待的是什么,
在Prefectorial Board,我好像只剩下WenLin,
在班上,我有了短暂的快乐.

感觉不大对,
不怎么说得上来,
但是相比起我Form1到Form3的生活,
现在这种生活大概可以被形容成华丽得潦倒吧?

我怀念和他们一起玩Killer的日子,
我怀念和他们一起耍帅一群人走出去的日子,
我怀念和他们一起不用伪装的日子,
我怀念和他们一起下课吃饭的日子,
我怀念和他们的日子,
我怀念他们.

现在的生活看起来很好,
KP很好听,
但是其实我并不喜欢这样的生活,
我想过我自己的生活,
不是prefect的生活,更不是KP的生活.

很久以前,
我以为我可以一直一直这样撑下去,
甚至再更久的以前,
我以为现在的位子会是我们的,
我以为我们永远不会说再见,
我以为我们可以好像ex-seniors那样多年后回首我们的回忆.
好一个`我以为`,

17个人,
唯独我一个人在承受这样的痛,
锥心之痛,
其实现在我的朋友圈子里随随便便都有几个ex-prefect,
Sherry,Tsen,Myng,Chen,Hang,Yuu,Farm etc...
如果当初我们一起坚持到今天,
结局是否会全然不同呢?

我只能说到现在,到今天,到这一刻,
我仍然在乎,
因为现在的Board,我们根本没有办法一大群人坐在一起谈心,
感觉不一样,
好像世界剩下我和雯琳,
或许雯琳不是和我一起进Prefectorial Board的,
但是她了解我.

我好想念一起那一群穿蓝衣,
天不怕,地不怕的家伙.

从以前不成熟,爱玩,不懂天高地厚的家伙,
现在都已经蜕变成,
成熟,展翅高飞的群鹰了,
但是唯一不变的是当我们凑在一块儿的时候,
从前的感觉就会卷土从来,
Killer,Family,互相zat对方,
那么的自然,那么的和谐,那么的平凡,那么的使人不能忘怀.

如果同一个问题再问我,
有没有后悔过,
我会答 有
但是我还是会留下来,
只是无论过了多久我仍然希望他们都还在.

至少我们彼此的生命都没有忘记对方,
我们不用去猜到到底对方是否不爽,
因为我们懂得坦诚相对,
就算不爽,
只要时间一过大家都会谅解彼此,
我清楚知道就算现在他们都在,
我们也未必是最好的batch,
但是自私的想法,
至少我不会那么辛苦,心痛.

最担心的莫过于是Juniors,
只有我和雯琳,
我们可以撑多久.

还是就如senior ChangXi所说的,
平安度过就好呢?

Day 1 without WenLin,
my mind is in mess,
It's 1.13am now and I'm having Physics paper tomorrow.

When nothing goes right,
Go sleep. << Quote from WenLin

C:

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Recently

Recently,
my life still goes on as usual.
Quote of the day:
No matter how dark the night is,The sun will eventually rises.

一切都仿佛恢复正常了,
我指的是我的心情.
想开了,
其实真的不必要纠结这种事情,
从这次的事件里,
我发现更多更爱我的人,
更多更值得我爱的人.

我以为是的世界就仅仅如此,
但是原来这些年来的付出和时光是没白费的,
我看见了很多很多对我好的人.

Yesterday,
Popo went to hospital,
Doctor mentioned that her blood pressure was too high,194,
That cause nose bleeding and bleeding from throat too,
I was shocked when I know that,
But somehow I can't anything except of PRAYING,
I cried for awhile when I get know this,
Luckily at last Popo was okayy c:

今天补习5个小时,
Austin完了又Dr Fong,
但是有他在我身边,
其实是幸福的,
至少我当时是快乐的,
JinHoong的手给HotCup烫到呱呱叫,
Yuetqi买了Blueberry Cheese Cake给采霓当生日礼物,
ShuZhe给我看了JinHoong"帮"Lip Gloss打广告的video,
Nicole讲我的头发很yeng,
他讲我的脚很短 *明明他的脚也没长到那里去*

这样的生活是平凡,
我们这些人也没有每天粘在一起,
但是奇妙的是当我们在一起的时候,
很自然,很舒服,很快乐,一点都不会尴尬.

我相信默契的,
很久以前,大概是Form 3的时候我就了解,
这是一种油然而生的默契,
不需要说,一个眼神,一个叹气,
自然而然我们就知道各自在烦恼什么,
而自然而然地知道什么时候是应该关心,什么时候应该沉默,
这是一种没有办法解释的默契.

这就是朋友,
我庆幸人生中有你们,
有些事情,一万年都不改变. --Quote from the 2010 Form 5's
c:

Monday, September 23, 2013

YOLO

YOLO,
You Only Live Once.

I wrote this in my English essay,
and I think of you in all a sudden.

或许现在这样对谁都好吧,
看看,
你可以放心地对她好不用担心我们在旁边;
我们可以好好地过自己的生活不用在你身边自己难过;
而她可以继续寻求你的关心.

少了我们两个,
你最近还好吗?
或则我应该问,你最近更好了吗?

可能你自己都不发觉我们的改变吧,
忽然间觉得这些日子的emo是很无谓的,
没有人发现,没有人关心,甚至没有人想要知道.

今天下课我看见你,
我是故意走开的,
因为我知道我还不能那么潇洒说声"Good Morning,Senior."
然后就走开.

我害怕,
害怕我会舍不得,
害怕自己又再一次受伤,
害怕自己平复的情绪又会再有起伏.

放学的时候,
你在BP,
我和senior ChangXi讲话,
那一刻我真的觉得很讽刺,
我和senior ChangXi聊天居然比和你聊天来得更自在,
至少我不用担心自己说的话没有人听,
也不用担心自己的存在根本没有人在意.

然后我看着地上说了声"Bye Bye",
不知道是和你说的,
还是和自己说的.

其实现在这样虽然没有什么好
但是也没有什么不好的,
至少你可以做你喜欢的事情,
我们不用继续受伤,
对大家而言都是件好事,不是吗?

I doesn't want to suffer in this kind of stuff anymore,
Maybe it's time to let go,
But somehow I knew that my heart doesn't wants to do so,
Should I follow my heart or follow my mind?

Will I regret?

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Distance

我是应该和你们保持距离的,
每个人都不同,
既然我无法改变你们,
那么我就只好改变自己.

到底我们的距离有多远?

至于你,
我真的无法解决事情了,
现在我能做的就只有努力想如果事情真的发生了,
我该怎么办.

我还可以做些什么,
到现在去我才发现,
其实我什么都不是,
事情发生的时候我居然是那么地无能.

为什么?

好希望我可以回到原点,
回到那个真的是最纯真,最快乐的原点.
但是现在的我到底离快乐有多远呢?
我看不见前方朦胧的路,
还有希望吗?

希望离我又有多远呢?

I knew everything,
It's so near yet so far,
But at last I change nothing,
It ain't the first time or the second time,
But every time what I can do is so little.

How far is the distance between me and  the peaceful life?

Friday, September 20, 2013

Helpless

应该是我不够好,
对不起.

真的很抱歉.

无论是哪一件事情,
I ruined everything.

I'm Helpless,
这一次没有人可以帮到我了.

对于你们,
我并没有生气你们,
只是我说过,
如果你们不找我,那么我也不亲近你们,
就如最熟悉的陌生人,
但是如果有那么一天你们忽然发现我的存在了,
我依然还是那个我,
我会像以前那样的,
只是这次我不想要再是那个乞求别人关心的乞丐了.

就这样好吗?

I knew it doesn't help on anything,but
I'm sorry. So sorry.
It's all my fault,no denies.

Can I still smile as usual tomorrow? :')
I don't think so.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Smile

就在那么一瞬间,
我把所有事情都想通了.

无论他做了什么,
我都应该体谅其实他是个人,
凡是人都会有私人情绪的,
只是在于愿不愿意去体谅而已.

一开始,
我以为我已经没有办法体谅了,
我以为我已经完全死心了,
但是就在对着电脑的那一刻,
不知怎么了,
我忽然发现其实我想要的是说服自己去相信他.

既然我找了千百个理由给他,
那为什么我不能相信他呢?

就算今天在BP对着他,
我仍然不想和他说话,
不想面对他.

但是回家后,
我发现我其实可以相信他,
就在于相信这两字而已,
更何况,
我想相信他.

知道为什么我想相信他吗?
大概是因为他曾经给了最温暖的回忆,
最温馨的拥抱,
最真挚的眼神,
最美丽的时光,
这些东西难道不能概括那些所谓的事情吗?

我相信可以的,
我相信你,
真的.

Smile,
Don't make your world full of darkness,
Hope is still on,
Just let the brightness in,
Your world will be more wonderful. :')

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Just Let It Go

我不想再傻下去了,
真的死心了.
连senior ChangXi都看得出我今天emcee 的时候不对劲,
连senior JinWei都看得出我们在躲你,
连HongNgiap都看得出我今天不一样,
连Yuetqi都看得出我还在为这些事情烦恼,
连SiewThau都会静静坐着听我讲一些她听不懂的事情,
甚至连什么都不懂的Fong都看得出我心情不好,
他们都会来安慰我,
无论是懂发生什么事情的还是茫然不懂的.

但是回家一开Twitter,
我就知道今天你们全部酱早回家是有原因的.

我们很hurt,
真的hurt到遍体鳞伤,
如果真的有那么一天你会看见这个post,
我只想跟你说,
一切都已经太迟了,
早就在不知道什么时候开始你话里的第一句话总是她的时候,
一切就已经太迟了,
不是你的错,
只是我们不够好没有办法让你记住我们.

我真的很失望,
失望到忘记掉泪,忘记怎样洗澡,
我自己也觉得很好笑,
我居然站在冲凉房15分钟淋水,
然后忘记怎样洗澡.

听到雯琳讲下午的事情的时候,
我的心忽然重重的掉了下去,
为什么到这一刻你仍然要伤害我们,
为什么.

早上emcee的时候,
我根本不敢看你,
我怕我会忽然间在台上哭,
下课我去找senior JinWei的时候,
Bell ring之后,
你上来了,我知道我应该勇敢点去面对你,
我也以为我可以很潇洒地说一声Good morning,senior,
然后就离开,
但是我不能所以我情愿自己离开都不想要逼自己对你冷漠.

Just Let It Go,
我不想再这样下去,
我现在只想疏远你,
然后把自己保护好不要再受到这些无谓的伤害,
最后,
我只想把你好的那一面变成永恒的回忆,
至少在我的心里面,
你还是那个最温暖的Daddy.
就算现在和将来不是,
也至少不要让他在我心中的印象破碎.

我怎么都想不到,
我原以为我会是最放不开的那个,
结果到最后最先被逼放手的却是我,
我到底做了什么让自己变得那么可笑呢?
到底是什么让我变成现在这个模样呢?
我不懂,也不想懂了,
因为我真的累了.

我其实不能失去你,
我也不想失去你,
但是对不起,
我没有办法在这样的情况下面对你,
因此我选择放手.

以后我们两个不在你身边,
请记得按时用餐,
驾车小心,
不要吃那么多快餐和煎炸食物,
不要读书读到半夜不睡觉隔天眼睛肿得像熊猫,
早点睡觉,
不要每次ponteng,
还有请好好照顾自己.

The story has come to an end.
No more new chapters of 5 of US.Never.
From now onwards,the story will only continue by the remaining 3 of THEM.
I wish that without 2 of us you guys can have a wonderful journey,
May god bless you.
Peace and harmony. :')

Monday, September 16, 2013

Imperfect

没有人在意我们的牺牲,
做到半夜3点原来在你们眼里是理所当然的事情,
我们只是不说,
并不代表我们不在意,不辛苦,
更不代表我们是应该帮你们收拾烂摊子的.

你们有理由,我们都明白,
但是我在意的是,
我给你了时间,很充分的时间,
但是为什么在最后2天你告诉我们你不能完成那就算了,
我不明白你之前的时间到底做了什么,
3个星期了但是没有一件事情是完成的.

然后你觉得我们两个人可以替你完成3个星期的东西,
我无奈,
但是我们仍然做,因为那时为了seniors做的.
埋怨又怎样,想不到办法又怎样?
我们还是得做,因为没有人会帮我们两个想办法,
更加没有人会在意我们付出了多少.

我不是只是把东西丢给你做的,
我把所有东西edit好了给你,
但是到最后呢?
我们却得在2天内从新做过.
我不埋怨为什么你不能完成,
我只是气为什么你之前的3个星期仿佛什么都没有做到,
然后我们问你的时候却告诉我做到7788了.

Slideshow,
你只做了6个slides,
然后其余36个seniors的也是我帮你做,
两个晚上,
做到3点多然后去到学校还要练舞练到5点多,
video,slideshow,礼物,atur cara我们都已经搞定了,
结果你们连练舞都不能每次出席,
排位排了那么久都排不出.

对,
我知道你们有事情,
但是我们两个也不是什么奇能异士可以瞬间帮你们解决所有问题吧?
我不在意你们有事情不能帮忙,
至少之前的准备在有时间的时候做一做吧?
最后真的不能完成了,然后我们两个就得解决烂摊子,
而你们却一直feel guilty,feel sorry,
可以不要让全世界都觉得亏欠你们,觉得我们欺负你们吗?
又或者可以做些有建设性的东西吗?

我不是累,不是生气,
是失望,是死心,
原来你的心里就只有她们,
你知道发生什么事情的,
但是为什么还要这样伤害我们?

Imperfect,
我只想告诉你,
不是我们没有做,是做了但是play不到.
如果我们也像他们那样有3个星期,
我们也可以解决完这些事情,
但是我们没有时间,
你到底明白吗?

你永远不会感受到当video play不到的时候,
我们有多么的失落,多么的想让你们有更美好的回忆,
但是在你心里有在意过我们吗?
抚心自问.

结果我们得到的是,
what if got this? what if got that? THEN BETTER.
为什么你们不去告诉他们,
就因为他们有很好的理由,
就因为我们是应该被挑剔的?

我们不要乞求回来的关心,
我们要得其实很简单,真的很简单.
只要你的心有一个小小,小小的角落是容得下我们的,
那就好.

舍不得是留给那些互相在意对方的人身上用的,
所以我不想要再傻傻地期待.
有些事情,不在乎懂还是不懂,只在乎相信还是不相信.
更何况你懂也仿佛不相信我们努力,
根本从一开始就是一个错误. 既然是个错误那就不应该继续错下去.
因此我想暂时性疏远你们.

你不是最好的,却是我最珍惜的.

但是你珍惜我们有像我们珍惜你那么多吗?
还是你的心根本容纳不下我们了.
對你而言 我們之間 只不過像過眼雲烟,
但是对于我们而言你重要,很重要,真的.
就算在这一刻,还是那么的重要.
相信這個他不一樣 卻又再一次受傷,
我们相信你,甚至从来没有料到像今天的事情会发生,
但是最后呢? 我们能做的唯有忍住眼泪地笑.

最后,

我只想说,
到这一刻我仍然很心痛,
到这一刻我仍然相信你不是故意的,
我找了100个理由给你,
我只希望有那么其中的一个是真的,
不要再令我失望好吗?

由头至尾,

我都没有生气过,
我只是失望,只是心痛,只是觉得牺牲换来的为什么是这样的结局.
有没有那么一刻你曾经不因为任何人,任何事,
就像你忽然想起她们那样想起过我们呢?

不告诉你是因为我不想你烦,不想你怜悯,不想让你感到压力,

这不是你的错,
或许只是我们不够好.

也许时间可以让这一切慢慢被淡忘的. :')